It's been an incredibly long time since I've posted, and I know there are a few people wondering how I've been since I've come back out to Colorado. The initial adjustment was rather rough. I wasn't quite sure where I fit in, and to tell the truth, sometimes I'm still not sure. But, I'm learning that that is perfectly ok. Not knowing, is allowing God to have the control, and for so long, I've tried to control every aspect of my life. Not knowing is interesting, fun, full of variety. I'm still working in Pueblo, which I was thrilled about. I go to therapy for my knee twice a week at a therapist in Pueblo West; it seems to be going good, but there are moments when frustration kicks in. Hopefully though, in two weeks I'll start running a little bit, which I'm seriously excited about!...anyway, I'll have more later but here are some not so random thoughts.
12 In Whom, because of our faith in Him, we dare to have the boldness (courage and confidence) of free access (an unreserved approach to God with freedom and without fear).
13 So I ask you not to lose heart [not to faint or become despondent through fear] at what I am suffering in your behalf. [Rather glory in it] for it is an honor to you.
14 For this reason [[a]seeing the greatness of this plan by which you are built together in Christ], I bow my knees before the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
15 For Whom every family in heaven and on earth is named [that Father from Whom all fatherhood takes its title and derives its name].
16 May He grant you out of the rich treasury of His glory to be strengthened and reinforced with mighty power in the inner man by the [Holy] Spirit [Himself indwelling your innermost being and personality].
17 May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love,
18 That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God’s devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it];
19 [That you may really come] to know [practically, [b]through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses [c]mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] [d]unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and [e]become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!
-Ephesians 3:12-19 AMP
Is that not just simply amazing?! That we can go to God with boldness, freedom, and confidence. That there are reasons for the refining even if we don't always see it. That in all of that, He is giving us the ability to learn to understand how vast His love is for us. And that we all can be filled by His Spirit!
I have been amazed at how truly faithful He has been; I've asked for things, and even though I had some doubt that they would come true, He proved Himself and His promises to me. I cannot wait to see what else He is going to do. I'm also thrilled that slowly He is showing me who I am to Him and who I am in Him. My Daddy is so good.